Our Thanksgiving...

So I am late updating about our Thanksgiving. I have been working all week and just havent had the time to get on here and update. Thanksgiving day the girls, Steve and I spent it out at my Dads house. My stepmom cooked and we ate dinner about 2ish because Steve and I both had to work Thanksgiving night.

It was a good day. I spent it with the ones I love and then went to work and had a pretty good night. Well I have to go get ready for work. Its my Friday! YAY!

Our Thanksgiving...

So I am late updating about our Thanksgiving. I have been working all week and just havent had the time to get on here and update. Thanksgiving day the girls, Steve and I spent it out at my Dads house. My stepmom cooked and we ate dinner about 2ish because Steve and I both had to work Thanksgiving night.

It was a good day. I spent it with the ones I love and then went to work and had a pretty good night. Well I have to go get ready for work. Its my Friday! YAY!

Off to a good start..

I have decided to get back on my weight loss mission. I am doing great by the way. Although I could be eating better BUT stress has sure made that impossible. I just dont have an appetite. BUT I am trying. I try and eat a little something here and there throughout the day. Since November 18th. I have lost 9.4 lbs. Yea that is just a week. Hmmmm can you say stress?!?!?! I decided to start taking my phentermine again and really get back into the swing of things like I was when I lost all the weight back in Feb. of 2007. I am going to set a walking routine and stick to it. I really need to get back in shape and feel good about myself. That is all I want to do, is feel good about my body and the way I look.

I know now is the wrong time with the holidays, but I can still eat holiday dinners and be on my diet and be just fine. I dont eat much to begin with even when I wasnt on my diet. My stomache just isnt that big anymore.. So wish me luck on my journey. I can do it. I might hit some bumps along the way but when I set my mind to something it will be accomplished no matter what, that is my stubborn side. :)

Off to a good start..

I have decided to get back on my weight loss mission. I am doing great by the way. Although I could be eating better BUT stress has sure made that impossible. I just dont have an appetite. BUT I am trying. I try and eat a little something here and there throughout the day. Since November 18th. I have lost 9.4 lbs. Yea that is just a week. Hmmmm can you say stress?!?!?! I decided to start taking my phentermine again and really get back into the swing of things like I was when I lost all the weight back in Feb. of 2007. I am going to set a walking routine and stick to it. I really need to get back in shape and feel good about myself. That is all I want to do, is feel good about my body and the way I look.

I know now is the wrong time with the holidays, but I can still eat holiday dinners and be on my diet and be just fine. I dont eat much to begin with even when I wasnt on my diet. My stomache just isnt that big anymore.. So wish me luck on my journey. I can do it. I might hit some bumps along the way but when I set my mind to something it will be accomplished no matter what, that is my stubborn side. :)

R.I.P My dear friend Vando..

I got some VERY sad news today. I went to the grocery store and ran into a lady that works out at a stable part time that I sold my horse Vando to. She recognized me and asked me how I was doing. I told her great. She met the girls and said that I should bring them out sometime to see the horses. I told her I was afraid to come out because I was afraid to be told that Vando was no longer alive. She looked away and looked back at me briefly then looked down again. I said I take that as yes she isnt alive any longer. She said yea actually we lost her last week. I had tears forming in my eyes right there but held it together. GOD that was hard. She could clearly see I was upset. She gave me a hug and said she was sorry and that they had some photos of her throughout her life with them if I would like some copies they would give them to me. I thanked her and told her I would try and bring the girls out sometime to see the horses and left. I got in my car and just cryed. WHY?!?! All this hurt now. I swear I am just doomed to be hurt. I cant handle much more hurt... my heart is just numb from all this hurting. :(

I loved this animal with all my heart. She was my life back in those days and I swear she was like my child. I lost a piece of myself when I had to sell her and Glen at the stables swore he would allow me to come see her whenever I wanted too and I did go see her twice. But it was so hard. It was like she remembered me, I am sure she did. She would neigh and carry on when I left and it was just hard. So I stopped going to see her. I am crushed to hear she is no longer alive. I regret not seeing her more. She was a VERY special horse. You might think I am crazy to be sitting her upset over a horse that is dead. BUT you would have to have known her to know why I am so upset. She had character. She had charm. She could make me laugh and cheer me up when I was down. I would go out and ride her everyday for hours. She was my life. We rode in parades, went to the beach, went camping overnight. You name it we did it. She was my partner in crime. And I feel horrible for not seeing her more.

R.I.P my dear VANDO!! I will miss you!

Here are some photos of her and I that I dug out...

R.I.P My dear friend Vando..

I got some VERY sad news today. I went to the grocery store and ran into a lady that works out at a stable part time that I sold my horse Vando to. She recognized me and asked me how I was doing. I told her great. She met the girls and said that I should bring them out sometime to see the horses. I told her I was afraid to come out because I was afraid to be told that Vando was no longer alive. She looked away and looked back at me briefly then looked down again. I said I take that as yes she isnt alive any longer. She said yea actually we lost her last week. I had tears forming in my eyes right there but held it together. GOD that was hard. She could clearly see I was upset. She gave me a hug and said she was sorry and that they had some photos of her throughout her life with them if I would like some copies they would give them to me. I thanked her and told her I would try and bring the girls out sometime to see the horses and left. I got in my car and just cryed. WHY?!?! All this hurt now. I swear I am just doomed to be hurt. I cant handle much more hurt... my heart is just numb from all this hurting. :(

I loved this animal with all my heart. She was my life back in those days and I swear she was like my child. I lost a piece of myself when I had to sell her and Glen at the stables swore he would allow me to come see her whenever I wanted too and I did go see her twice. But it was so hard. It was like she remembered me, I am sure she did. She would neigh and carry on when I left and it was just hard. So I stopped going to see her. I am crushed to hear she is no longer alive. I regret not seeing her more. She was a VERY special horse. You might think I am crazy to be sitting her upset over a horse that is dead. BUT you would have to have known her to know why I am so upset. She had character. She had charm. She could make me laugh and cheer me up when I was down. I would go out and ride her everyday for hours. She was my life. We rode in parades, went to the beach, went camping overnight. You name it we did it. She was my partner in crime. And I feel horrible for not seeing her more.

R.I.P my dear VANDO!! I will miss you!

Here are some photos of her and I that I dug out...

Sunday Already?!?!

My days off are flying... And I am so not looking forward to the holiday. Yes that is sad to say. BUT I miss my family holidays with my family (my mom, grandmother and sisters.) I wish I didnt have to work cause I would be gone in a heartbeat. I get to spend Thanksgiving alone. So I am glad I have to work in a way because it will get my mind off of things.

I plan to take the girls to see Santa soon and then take them to get their pics done at either JC Penneys or Picture People. I might even sneak into one. I dont know. Gotta wait awhile though... well until this nice shiner is gone. LOL

I really wish I could freeze time. I just dont want to face the next few weeks. To much to think about and it just makes me so depressed. I just need to get through the second week of Decemember and get that behind me. Wether or not it makes things for me better I dont know. Life is full of hurt .. and it has surrounded me full force. I am trying to be strong. But it can only last so long.

Well anyways I was trying to make this a positive blog but I seem to have gotten off track and made it a negative one. I am going to go take my shower and get ready for my girls to come home and then go get my chair from my Dads.

Have a wonderful Sunday!