R.I.P My dear friend Vando..

I got some VERY sad news today. I went to the grocery store and ran into a lady that works out at a stable part time that I sold my horse Vando to. She recognized me and asked me how I was doing. I told her great. She met the girls and said that I should bring them out sometime to see the horses. I told her I was afraid to come out because I was afraid to be told that Vando was no longer alive. She looked away and looked back at me briefly then looked down again. I said I take that as yes she isnt alive any longer. She said yea actually we lost her last week. I had tears forming in my eyes right there but held it together. GOD that was hard. She could clearly see I was upset. She gave me a hug and said she was sorry and that they had some photos of her throughout her life with them if I would like some copies they would give them to me. I thanked her and told her I would try and bring the girls out sometime to see the horses and left. I got in my car and just cryed. WHY?!?! All this hurt now. I swear I am just doomed to be hurt. I cant handle much more hurt... my heart is just numb from all this hurting. :(

I loved this animal with all my heart. She was my life back in those days and I swear she was like my child. I lost a piece of myself when I had to sell her and Glen at the stables swore he would allow me to come see her whenever I wanted too and I did go see her twice. But it was so hard. It was like she remembered me, I am sure she did. She would neigh and carry on when I left and it was just hard. So I stopped going to see her. I am crushed to hear she is no longer alive. I regret not seeing her more. She was a VERY special horse. You might think I am crazy to be sitting her upset over a horse that is dead. BUT you would have to have known her to know why I am so upset. She had character. She had charm. She could make me laugh and cheer me up when I was down. I would go out and ride her everyday for hours. She was my life. We rode in parades, went to the beach, went camping overnight. You name it we did it. She was my partner in crime. And I feel horrible for not seeing her more.

R.I.P my dear VANDO!! I will miss you!

Here are some photos of her and I that I dug out...